Yarr, I think I went a lil' bit crazy in my previous post. xD

I like being vague in my posts, too. It's more mysterious. ;o?

And only some people know what I'm talking about sometimes, so yeah. :P

I have to go back to school tomorrow. Ho hum. I just remembered I haven't showed my mum my report card yet. xD I always leave it till the last day so she won't keep railing at me to study during the holidays. :D?

Oh my, I just remembered I have one and a half English comprehension exercises to do. ARGH.

AND BIOLOGY. *________*

WHY, OH, WHY?!

*goes to do homework*

As Gackt said, "watashi wa ima les miserable".

The one where I keep thinking I'm dreaming or imagining things

As you can see, I still cannot believe the events that took place yesterday. xD

Hurr.

Thanks, Danny! <3

The one where I feel a lot better

Yeah, things are sorted out now, and I don't feel crappy anymore. Especially after our little conversation today/last night.

Anyway, I was browsing some random Namie Amuro forums when I thought I saw my brother's picture as someone's avatar when I realised it was just Takeshi Kaneshiro. That like, scared the hell outta me.

Takeshi

My brother

Yeah, I couldn't find any nicer photos of him. His room is in a mess. o.o;

Lalala~

I got this horrible cough, by the way. Kept me up the whole night. Then I managed to fall asleep. Then I woke up again. And I started coughing like my lungs were about to jump out anytime. My mum, who sleeps beside me, couldn't sleep because of my hacking and I was chased downstairs at four in the morning. So I took advantage of the situation by watching a movie and some episodes of Inuyasha.

Hurr, I just remembered that I forgot to buy cough lotion.

Ah, I'll just get my brother to help me get a bottle of Woods. *.*

I'll sign off for now.

Damn it, damn it, DAMN IT!

I missed him yet again! Why does this always happen?

I was helping my old man out and he couldn't stay so we couldn't talk at all.

I hate this. ;___________;

The one where I feel like shiet.

Damn it, I feel fucked up today.

Something is very wrong between us, but I just can't put my finger on it.

Is he hurt and feeling melancholy while I'm not there to comfort him and hold him when he really needs it most?

It's highly probable.

And if so, I'm such a failure.

I don't know what I have to do to keep him from becoming apathetic again, I just don't know. How can we keep close when I can't contact him all the time?

It seems like I'm the weak one now.

Enough of this rambling. I should try to take things as they come, I guess.